Friday, September 22, 2006
im thinking, and im thinking real hard. wishing you were here. because the memory's not enough. i wear my mask in silence, pretending im alright. if you could see. then you would be here standing by my side. it maybe hard to believe, but you're the only i need. for me, the sky now is like from blue sky turns to grey. i find myself, trying to wash away the pain. but i need you to give me some shelter. because im fading away. cant help. but i remember, how you made me feel. you completed me. but of all. we've said and done. remains as memories of days when life was fun. but now. without you. things will never be the same again. its not the beginning. its not the end. but still. it'll never be the same again. i really hope i can reverse the time. to amend all the fault that had happened. though we are friends now. but the feelings still there. i hope theres a miracle. i really do. but maybe its too childish for me to think it that way. i know there's some things that you didnt tell me when we're in relationship. but now as a friend. i really hope to know you more. it maybe hard along the way. and im sorry if i'd offended you or maybe im too hard on you. i know i'd neglected you sometimes. the thing you want, its not the things that i give. those i gave, are not what you wanted. im sorry but i'd tried my best to understand you and give you the best that i can. sorry too. i cant changed. my attitude is like that. i know you dont like it but im trying to change. sorry. but i thank you for everything. your love, your care, and your concern. thanks for pushing me through when i need you. thanks for being there. and thanks for the memory, all our happy moment. its so sweet of you. i can sense it now. but its a little bit too late. dragging on aint a good idea. and maybe as you'd said. this is the only way. i thought i'd prepared. but still. couldnt face it. i dont want it to happen. so abrupt. but i cant do anything to help it. all i want now is to start all over again for you and me. i know its impossible. but its just a little wish of mine. and everything had ended but my feelings for you wont changed. maybe time can amend this. but for now. i just wanted to tell you one last time.
i love you my dear ah tingg.
i really do.
screamed ;
9/22/2006 01:16:00 AM
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