Friday, June 29, 2007

well, a-week long of exams' finally ended. exams' stress over as well. but now, worry of results begin.
i know how much i'd put in for each paper, and i'll just wait and wish for the best to unfold. really hope all the intense studying through these few weeks would prove myself.

(PS: Kevin, i know how much you'd look forward to the paper. but you'd just risk it because of your honesty, your personal integrity, your own conscience. be it me or others, i think most will choose the other path to solve this. yet, you chose the most uncorrupted way. seriously, im impressed by you and i look up on you. if no other people can help, i think god will help. so just wait for the good news. (: )

(PS: Goodfriend, im done with mine, and i'd no regret. how's yours? still onboard? ((: )
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raising my glass, i sing a toast to the midnight sky.
but i wonder why,
the stars dont seem to guide me.
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6/29/2007 02:32:00 PM

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Thursday, June 28, 2007

long hours of study with Kevin and Jiaqing. rather productive.
we stressed ourselves, just trying to make things out. and all we yearn for is just to get a good grade for tomorrow's paper.
what's done been done. those need to be try, i'd tried.
i'll just hope that i can manage the paper.
*
you start shaking at the thought, you're everything i want.
because you are everything, im not.
*

screamed ;
6/28/2007 12:14:00 AM

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Wednesday, June 27, 2007

two days gone,
one bad one good, is all i can say for the papers taken.
and wednesday's suppose to be a relaxing day,
but no, have to study for thurday's paper.
*
im still trying to hang on
hanging onto this shit
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got this from charmaine's blog.
so, just give it a try.

YOUR REPORT CARD:
Category	Grade
Love	B
Friends and Family	A+
Body	C
Mind	A+
Finance / Career	A
Your Life's Average Grade: A
'What is your Life Grade?' at QuizGalaxy.com

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6/27/2007 12:50:00 AM

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Tuesday, June 26, 2007

today's paper was an utter rubbish.
still, i'd no regret, i know i'd tried.

"well, would you do it again? and count backwards from ten
i dont make those mistakes no more."

screamed ;
6/26/2007 12:33:00 AM

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Monday, June 25, 2007

start of exams, bless me.

screamed ;
6/25/2007 01:25:00 AM

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Friday, June 22, 2007

exams coming up next week, and there's so much to handle. i did do some revision in school these days. but when i reached home, they're mostly forgotten. i find things so hard to remember now. maybe because im tire? yes, i know im tired. seriously, i really couldnt get into sleeps these days. i thought i'd fallen alseep, but i can just open my eyes out of a sudden. i didnt have any bad dreams. and even if i'd got to really sleep, it's around dawn already. i do have repeated dreams, same things kept coming into my mind. and the time is always 8 plus in the morning when i wake up. what the fuck? i thought i'd slept long enough, but its only for the few 2hours. headache and cough killing me as well. thought i'd recovered but it just come back after a week. also, some things kept bothering me, just couldnt figured out what is it. so fucking uneasy. damn, save me from this. i dont want to fail this exams because of all this shit.

screamed ;
6/22/2007 12:13:00 AM

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Monday, June 18, 2007

they say, you shouldn't go alone
it's not so good when you're on your own
but neither are we to take the first step
why does hello,
always feels like goodbye.
you're not making things easy
nevertheless, you still choose to walk this route alone.

screamed ;
6/18/2007 11:47:00 PM

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happy father's day.(:

screamed ;
6/18/2007 12:30:00 AM

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Sunday, June 17, 2007

he's here for this, and not turning back
he makes me this way
he wants you to learn the truth and not the way things are meant to be
pain in his life, all he know is misery
look into my eyes, your pain is his satisfaction.
he'll slits and lays agony on you.

screamed ;
6/17/2007 02:41:00 AM

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Saturday, June 16, 2007

words, filled with lies come out from you, and what's the worst that you would take from every heart that you break. can i pretend to leave? or can i just stay here knowing that you will go away. all my life seems to be flashing in front of my eyes, to only know that the image was vague. the ways of devotion turn into obsession. distance yourself from the pain that covers me, as i reach out for your hand to find there's nothing left for me. sever me from the fall.

screamed ;
6/16/2007 12:35:00 AM

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Friday, June 15, 2007

Frolic@MOS on tuesday was ~~FUN~~,
and seriously, i think going club doesnt suits me at all.

and well, earlier on this morning, met up kakees and headed down to sentosa. and lucky for us, the weather's fine today.
there is sunshine when we feel like baking ourselves. there is wind blowing when we're cooling ourselves down after few tiring soccer match. there is drinks for us when we wanted to quench our thirst.
and what can i say other than i'd enjoyed this trip. it's always so great when we're out in the sun. together, we sweat, we played, we laughed. (: and shant say too much, photos will tell it all.

HOLD IT THERE.

warm-up session, people

actually, the camera was focusing on the people lying down behind the three of them HAHA!

there they go, tipsy.

whats wrong with doing that ?

we do smile one okay.

and we rock the beach, people

( PS: All the best to you, mingda. Do take care of yourself while in camp okay! we'll be missing you and waiting for you to come out and rock our asses! Take care my bestest bro, my warmest regards.)

( PS: OI OI YOU YOU, GOODFRIEND. jazz up okay! im here you see? can see me not? and remember, dont ever fall off your big ship. my snake bites! i think you know what i mean. so jiayou! ((: )

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6/15/2007 01:26:00 AM

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Saturday, June 09, 2007

would you or would you not want to know that you have a gene that predisposes you to a congenital heart disease, or some kind of other illness?
would you or would you not want to know that you have a gene that reflects you that you'll be a burglar or a rapper when you grow up?
do gene really affects us alot? come to think of it again. beckham's a good midfielder, victoria's a good singer. but will their child grown up to be a good soccer player as well as a singer? ya, of coz, most answer will be no right? but think again. you'll never be able to know how powerful the secret of life can be.
would you go for 'nurture' or would you rather go with the 'nature'? ultimately, its up to one to choose. this will determine how you would change your fate.
but as for me, i would go with 'nature', which one of them will you choose?

it's been so long since you've heard the hurting words. i care for you, and i know this is the right time. forget your past and see what is now. even if you dont want to, you gotta face the truth. you wait to say goodbye and wishing that "someday" would come along. you're not thinking of reality, you made the most of your lies. a broken heart came crashing down and you're stabbed from behind. why dont you care? but all i want to say was, a thank you to you, for making me so worthless in your eyes.

HOT as fcuk, down under YOU.(: my dear friend, where had you been to? and i'd got another ice cream. your lipstick, his collar, dont bother kendre. (:

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6/09/2007 12:15:00 AM

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Friday, June 08, 2007

uuhhhh, after 7weeks of studying, i'd finally paid attention and scribble down something in my mct text. oh, i seee. im coming back again. and people, watch your back, i'll stab when you're unaware.
and by the end of this 3years in school, im gonna owned the book prize award.
shit, i just flung my lab test today. -.- though i know i'd tried, but still couldnt get to the desired graph. FUCK!!! -.- how can i get to my award then? roar.

i bet you laugh, at the thought of me thinking for myself, and i bet you believe, that im better off with you than someone else. your face arrives again, all hope i had become surreal. but under your cover, there's more torture than pleasure. and just past your lips, there's more anger than laughter. not now, or forever will i ever changed, i know it go on, i'll stifle you.

and kend, ya i suppose it was pronounce as 'can'? isnt it? haha alright, sweetest drug, and i want my 50cents ice cream YOU!

screamed ;
6/08/2007 12:15:00 AM

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Tuesday, June 05, 2007

ROAR, finally we're done with our rwp presentation. and before hand everything was a total mess for me, for speech wise i mean. but well, rush through the night to complete it. and uh huh. GUESS WHAT FAGGOTS?
OUR PRESENTATION WAS A GREAT ONE OKAY. and we( kevin, jiaqing and i) were damn happy about it man. even the lecturer says our presentation was a well prepared one, full of details, bitch. LOL! and the forever-got-things-to-complain joel says our presentation was a well organized one. ROAR.
and the comment for ourselves.
( Kevin says : I'm quite satisfied with this presentation)
( Jiaqing says : I'm very satisfied with this presentation)
( Chengearn says : I'm fucking satisfied with this presentation as compared to the past few ones.)
woah, the three of us, defeats all question asked from the floor. alright, for at least, what we'd put in, it pays off. thanks kevin and jiaqing once again.
right, rwp was a small triumph for us. there's still more projects to go.

i do wonder what exactly he's doing with two handphones in hand.

after presentation! ROAR.

another one! there we cheer, ROAR.

oh fuck, my headache's still killing me. -.- medicine not effective either. FUCK.

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6/05/2007 11:55:00 PM

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Saturday, June 02, 2007

oh great, after so much of struggling, kevin and i had finally dealt with the MPLAB IDE mini project! were sitting down again at mct lab cracking our wits today. at first, it was like in a fuck again. errors popping out here and there. BUT WELL, with the help of kevin's gifted brain. we finally get the damn thing working.
(alright kevin, its at least a 80% for us already. and thanks for all the help, as in, in aiding me to understand the functions and all. i think, its another round of treat from me)
afterall, everything's paid off.
and earlier on in the day, we had our gem test. oh well, although i studied, reading the notes over and over again for umpteen times. but its like all those that i'd studied didnt come out, wtf?! its always like that la. utterly rubbish.
things' going smoother now, i'd better get things going before its too late.
and for now, still left with the speech for the report. hope this will be a first great presentation for us. ( oh ya kevin and jiaqing, BLACK is the new thesis this time round. ROAR!)
and exams coming up as well. had my study just now with jianliang. and furthermore, gonna spent my holidays catching up with schoolworks. FUCK.

dont try to put up a stuck-up look infront of me, faggots. i'll only think that you all are just trying to conceal the emptiness within yourselves. you all just fail to acknowledge that how fuckedup your faces are.

screamed ;
6/02/2007 01:23:00 AM

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Friday, June 01, 2007

listen up people,
it's me against the world, not the world against me.

screamed ;
6/01/2007 01:01:00 AM

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