Monday, July 30, 2007
its only the first day of the week. and god, i can feel how rush it can be. lucky for me, was able to complete my LD's PBIL today which date due next week. but of coz, thanks ronald, frederick, akbar for the help. well, one burden down.and also, was able to scrape through the mplab ide MCT lab test this evening. didnt prepared for it, and come to think of it. before the test, kevin, jiaqing and i were sleeping and slacking at one corner of the school. lucky for us, the paper is easy. right, one more down.whats more? report for rwp, interview for project two, and lab test for AS! after all these, i think, i can self-declared holiday for next week. yes, come on exams. im ready for it. ROAR!
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7/30/2007 11:49:00 PM
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again,
saturday night @ Cherry was hell lots of fun. AWESOME-LY GREAT.
yes, was there to celebrate andrew's brithday anyway.
and well, happy 18th birthday andrew! ( in advance )
i guess, those who're present enjoyed themselves man.
shit god, i cant wait for the photos man! ( ALVIN, PHOTOS! )
((:
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7/30/2007 12:03:00 AM
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Wednesday, July 25, 2007
i'd FINALLY completed one of my report. it took me like 123456789 hours to finish it yesterday night. oh no, this early morning i suppose. though its only 6 pages of unsatisfied work, but it is the best that i can do.
and i'd FINALLY done with my CVM after much troubleshooting and all. thank god.
but of coz, with the help of the lab technician; our class genius, junyi; and my very good buddy in class, who never fails to lend me a helping hand whenever i need it, who never fails to give me moral support whenever im in despair, kevin!
again these heart felt words enlighten me - " Your friend didnt give up on you, why must you give up on yourself? " - oh god.
yes, two things down. but still. there's more to come. roarrr.
okay, this is really one interesting video. a retard commenting on a fucktard.
and fuck, "you suck" and "chicken pie". LOL!
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7/25/2007 12:12:00 AM
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Monday, July 23, 2007
saturday night @ Cherry was AWESOME.sunday night at party world with family was WONDERFUL.weekend was a hell lots of fun for me. yes, im still fooling around and enjoying life - when my exams coming up in a month's time; when i'd got so many reports to do which date due tomorrow; when i'd got so many projects which date due this week. - and now, im rushing everything through, trying to complete as much as possible, by giving unsatisfactory answers. i dont wish things were to be in this way, but i couldnt escape the fact.im in a vulnerable position now, so helpless. roar.....................
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7/23/2007 11:40:00 PM
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Saturday, July 21, 2007
it's another disappointing friday.
still i preferred to let things be this way, though it doesnt seems pleasant to me at all.
for at least, it make things go unnoticed and save up trouble for others.
there's people saying,
"why dont you go and tell things straight?"
"is seeing things from far nice?"
"why you so coward? dont dare to confess?"
yes, i like to see things from far, so others wont know and mind too much of my business.
and its not that i dont want to tell things straight, its just that i dont have the courage to.
i admit, im a coward. but i dont need you to judge me, fucktards.
perhaps, i should just give it up, there's no use when no action is taken. and i hope, after this semester end, everything will be fine.
there isnt, anything wrong with giving up anyway.
i dont know why im being like this, when im just an unseen in people's eyes.
school work after school work.
projects after projects.
beside all these, personal problems' another factor affecting me. WTF.
everything just cock up now.
its near to the end of semester already and everybody's rushing their work.
stress i know, frustrated it can be.
i dont know how long can i hold on to this load.
sometimes i thought to myself,
maybe giving up is the only way out.
at first, i thought i know what are brothers for.
but then, just today i realise and ask myself this question.
"What exactly is brotherhood?"
why cant we just give in to each other, each say lesser word instead of talking and telling each other off.
wtf is wrong now? why do we have to quarrel over fucktard girls, money or other shit.
is there really a need in doing this? WTF.
is winning over a quarrel makes one feel happy?
i really dont know and dont understand why.
sigh.
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7/21/2007 01:13:00 AM
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Thursday, July 19, 2007
ugh shit, was feeling so sluggish this morning.
when i was on my way to school.
train's so packed with jackasses, pushing here and there.
was being squeezed to one corner, but i was so tire that i cant be bothered with them.
and unfortunately, it rain, fucking heavily. wtf.
yes, being smart, i took the shelter to avoid the rain.
but to only know that my shoe is already wet, WET!
while walking, someone come up to me and say
"erh, your bag didnt zip."
didnt really care about what he said at first, thought he's just some annoying ass fooling around.
he repeated his words, but still, i ignored.
and well, reached the lecture hall. and im an hour late.
when i put down my bag, then. i realise my bag really didnt zipped. WTF!
just imagine, from yishun all the way to dover with my bag open.
and not a single kind soul come up and tell me.
and i think i look really stupid with that.
just imagine again. a person, looking so lethargic, dragging his feet to school, although walking in shelter but still get wet. wtf?!
but well, i thanks that draglock guy, although he's abit irritating.
thursday's always the most boring day. LECTURE WHOLE DAY. ZzzZZZzz.
and hence, to pass time, photo taking session is ON!
i know i look weird. but please proceed to kevin's blog before giving your useless comments.
dont laugh, i got no time for my hair.
its FRIDAY and i cant wait to go to school!
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7/19/2007 11:55:00 PM
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your tolerance wrong
im a wishful thinker with the wrong intentions
your good intentions count for little anymore
im not fully convinced, theres something wrong with this
could it be another point of view, biased and untrue
if im just a bad news, then you're just a liar
if only you knew half as much as you pretend to.
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7/19/2007 12:17:00 AM
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Wednesday, July 18, 2007
struggled through project two. soldering can drive me nuts man.
"i didnt give up on you, you shouldnt give up on yourself."
thanks kevin, for helping me through with all the fucking soldering and troubleshooting. and thanks also, for the moral support! yes, this should be the way. (:
snraenahsiepsnraenahsiepsnraenahsiepsnraenahsiepsnraenahsiepsnraenahsiepsnraenahsiepsnraenahsiepsnraenahsiep
YES YES YOU YOU! (((((((((((((((((((:
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7/18/2007 12:23:00 AM
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Tuesday, July 17, 2007
yes, its only the start of the week, and i feel that there is so much things for me to do and complete. roar. and well, lucky, monday started off quite well. whats done been done. hopefully, it'll be a smooth week la. arghhh, mid sessional exams' coming up in less than a month time. but somehow, we're still having fun in class. ((:
uhhh, no. wrong one!
yes yes, you you! (:
i'd erased you off my mind, but the songs i listened, make me remind of you. they just undone what i'd tried so hard to do. its okay, the thought of you is always so nice, so nice. somehow this song can exactly describe how i feel now.
"im trying to forget, but im addicted to you. ........ how long will i be waiting, until the the end of time, i dont know why im still waiting, i cant make you mine."
YES YOU, I CANT RESIST, MY ADDICTION.
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7/17/2007 12:30:00 AM
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Monday, July 16, 2007
i'd tried a thing i didnt tried before in my life. and it appears to be so dramatic. whatever it is, i hope this should be the first and the last time.and well, cab down to mohd sultan on saturday night. met up with kevin, jiaqing, kenneth at Rush. kevin's friends melvin and marie were there too. oh god, this is the first time and maybe the last time i'd been to techno club. a whole new feeling i would say. the way people dance is so synchronize with the music. and shoutings can normally be heard. @#$%^&*#$%^&*(#$%^& here and there. well, nice experience, but sadly, its the last party there. and its nice seeing kevin and melvin exploding themselves inside, especially kevin. a different kevin i'd seen in there. you just rock la!
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7/16/2007 12:04:00 AM
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Friday, July 13, 2007
it's another FRIDAY! and its been 11weeks. 11 weeks of Friday. but everything's still the same. maybe its just another unwanted event, and well, maybe, i'll just wait, wait for semester one to end. and maybe by then, who knows, there is more than meets the eye.
yes, i'd carved Nahsiep on my skin, you.
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7/13/2007 11:45:00 PM
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Wednesday, July 11, 2007
rwp written test this morning. oh god, think i can barely pass the paper. still, it's okay, i know im always bad in my language. skipped maths, headed to kevin's place.
i forced him to take with me. LOL!
a random one. (:
everyone's favourite. :D
went back to school for project2. and oh god. i'd finally done with the drilling. and goodnight people. (:
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7/11/2007 01:30:00 AM
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Tuesday, July 10, 2007
just past your lips, there's more anger than laughter, Nah Siep.
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7/10/2007 12:11:00 AM
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Monday, July 09, 2007
somehow, he sees you again. not the first, neither the second time. everything's just so well planned. as if it feels like everything was real. right, you were at his place. and at that time, his parents were busy preparing the dinner, as though you were some vip in the house. at the sight of that, the both of you giggled. after dinner's taken, you sat in the living room with him and his parents. and then, you went closer to him and whispered to his ear, saying that you're staying over at his place that night. you were holding onto his hand while chatting with his parents, and watching the tv at the same time. he feels you, and you felt him as well. the both of you were sitting together, but saying nothing. just enjoy the presence of each other. that moment, a thought came through his mind - to make you his only love for the rest of his life - thats how he want it to be. and a kiss by you on him, brings him back from his naive thought. everything seems so peaceful, though quiet but sense of happiness can be felt. but, everything just disappear in the crack of dawn and to see himself that, everything which had happened before him, was just a sweet dreadful dream. once, he promised himself, he's not gonna make the same mistake again. but this promise was busted. he'd lost to her, the big big girl. to only realise that, he still couldnt fight his way out of the big big world she lives in.
you taught his heart, a sense he never knew he'd had.
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7/09/2007 12:40:00 AM
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Saturday, July 07, 2007
FRIDAY was supposed be a blissful one, until one motherfaggot ruins it, bitch.first, was maths tutorial. lecturer gone through paper and we left.then, was logic design tutorial. lecturer gone through paper and we left.Logic Design - 50 !oh god, this paper was a close shave. was supposed to get 49 for it, well, somehow. found one mistake which eventually i couldnt get mark for it, but i know i was lucky today. lecturer close one eye. and i managed to get the border line.
then! came the most happiest moment for the week - which i thought it should be, as it seems to be everyweek. was feeling heavenly great. i thought i could end the day with a big wide smile. but who knows, towards the end, the motherfaggot ruined it all. spoilt my fucking good mood for the damn day. i know i was in the wrong for not paying attention, but bitch, we aint disturbing the lesson. dont try to blame us like as if we're thousands-guilt criminal. we're not there to let you accused. we're just talking among ourselves. it aint a wrong thing to do. we're not shouting from one corner of the class to another corner. and if you were to say we disrupt the lesson, and distract those who want to study, come on la, can they really hear we what say? can you hear what we're talking about? i dont think those jackasses sitting infront/behind or you can. so what the fuck do you want us to do? shut our mouth and listen to your boring lecture? come on, im being good not to tell you off straight in class, bitch. but seriously, i dont think your lecture's interesting. not a single bit. you failed to be one lecturer. and so, WHO ARE YOU TO TELL ME OFF, BITCH. if it isnt because of nahsiep, i wouldnt have attend your irksome lesson. I'LL SCREWED YOU, MOTHERFAGGOT. _l_
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7/07/2007 12:08:00 AM
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Friday, July 06, 2007
woooooohhhh! guess what, it's FRIDAY! after 12am, and thursday had passed!
there's people asking, " so what's on friday? nothing special what. " ya, i know its just another ordinary day but yet, im happy. and im eager to go to school as compared to any other days in the week. yes, there's REASONsss for this. (:
tuesday's aint surprising at all. nothing much happen. but im really hoping for the best for today - FRIDAY! wish me luck, pals.
i know what im doing these few weeks, and i guess, this should be the way it should be. had been wondering whether things are going the rightt way. i dont know, but i hope to. ya i know there's some changes in me, not the myself i use to be. still, i prefer this self, not the past. this self, now, more sensible, more initiative, know the rights, correct the wrongs, but less hangout, less smile, less words, more boredom arise.
(:
( PS: Goodfriend!, im waiting already, its july already you know? )
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7/06/2007 12:09:00 AM
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Thursday, July 05, 2007
headed to school for some project interview. and by right, i got no school on wednesday. -.-well, interview's okay i guess. Mr JiangFan didnt ask us alot questions. so ya, think can manage to scrape through la.well, saw garry and eesan when going choachukang. LOL!
and we ( kevin, jiaqing and i ) went to catch Transformers! what else can i say about this show, its really damn fucking thrilling! no wonder it is a rated 4.5/5 movie. Optimus Prime and Bumble Bee, cooool. and ya its a really must watch movie la!
alright, went to choa chu kang library after movie. and god, i couldnt believe myself. imagine ChengEarn saying," i want go library leh, borrow books to read." i dont know. i hate reading since young. but just dont know why i got the urge to read now. well, maybe there's one reason, to cover up what i'd left undone in the past.
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7/05/2007 12:10:00 AM
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Tuesday, July 03, 2007
was an hour late for class today. so tire. and im really tire. but still, i put up a "smile" for the whole day. and i was lucky, when i stepped into the class, Miss Tan just started to go through the layout for our written test next week. test after exams, fuck. cant we just have a break?and presentation marks were out, got 77 for it. and i guess, it should be a good grade in class already. i guess so, because we really did well for it! and it didnt just end there, we'd still gonna do a 1200 words long written report on our presentation. what the fuck?! so many things coming up, lots of projects. lots of things still left undone. ROAR!sigh, alright. then was maths lecture. marks were released as well.Maths - 81!of coz im happy with it. but was surprise also, thought i could only get 70odds because of careless mistakes, uh well, somehow, thank god once again. i'd made another A for myself. (:
that was how we spent our time during maths lecture, LOL.
seriously, he keeps me in doubt. ROAR.
caught sleeping in class, and he's really into his deep sleep. oh my god. LOL!
there isnt anything wrong with doing that. (:
and finally, get to meet up with mingda this evening, together with sam, joyce and lilian. chatted for quite long. and though mingda's cracking joke around but i know he dont seems okay.well, best bro. take care of yourself inside la!
( PS: Mingda, i know how much you're going through now. its tough inside. ns life doesnt seems as easy as others say. but just tahan through this shit! you sounds you're okay, but i believe. you're not right? you're just trying to cover up yourself. its hard on you, but neither do we want to see our brother to go on depression because of this right? other than giving you moral support. we cant do anything. but ultimately, you still have to depend on yourself when inside. dont find unnecessary trouble if possible. you should know what i mean. this is their camp, and you should know it very clearly. messing with them will only let you end up on the losing side. we dont want to see brother in trouble also. so for the sake of yourself and us. just control yourself. i know its easier to be said than done. but you got no choice. die die also have to try k! i'll see you again okay! and you take care! (: best regards. )
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7/03/2007 11:50:00 PM
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first day of school after three weeks of holidays and exams. not as bad as i thought, partly is because there's no lesson today. ya, lecturers busy going through our exam papers.well, got back two papers today. and thank god. was very much pleased with my results. Microcontroller Tech. - 67.glad with this, because i manage to pass! didnt really studied. a low mark i know, need not have to proud of it. but, i know i'd put in my best for this, and thats my best. Analog System - 94!seems high uh? but it is consider as a mediocre result in class already. yes, i agreed im fucking contented with this. but seeing people getting 95 and above makes me feel... argh. but, got nothing to whine about, i'd tried. (: and my lecturer told me this, " if you were to pay attention to lecture last time, i think you would have gotten a fullmark." ROAR! just have to blame myself for this. a really elite class im in. so competitive. scoring As and distinctions for them is like sneezing, and getting fullmarks is just like digging nose. -.- it's that easy. but for me, i'd to struggle. struggle through everynight hoping to climb to the top, to only know that im only at the middle-of-the-road. sigh, i'll just do my part and keep on trying. (:
what the fuck is happening to this world?do we really need to use unconventional ways to achieve what we pursue? isnt being honest's the best reason to it? one of our school motto. " to have personal integrity " but do this really apply? i wouldnt have said it for students like me. but why cant even a school director put a thought to it? what the fuck?!
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7/03/2007 12:34:00 AM
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Monday, July 02, 2007
lessons continue as normal. really dont like waking up early, and squeezing the train when going to and back from school. roar. but, feels quite excited though. i just cant find the reason why. there my heart goes, "quick! go to school, go to school!" and seriously, i cant wait for Friday to come by. i'd just missed the "last Friday", oh shit!! ( I think Kevin and Jiaqing should know it. evil laughs!)*FRIDAY FRIDAY FRIDAY FRIDAY FRIDAY FRIDAY!*and, im so keyed up la! wonder what would happen on Tuesday!. *evil laugh!* oh no, shant think too much now, still dont know whether to believe it or not. ROAR!uh well, i shall wait for the GOOD news. (((:
"You're a loyal and supportive person, which makes you a great friend to have.but you sacrifice yourself for the happiness of others.and you always follow your heart more than your head."really?
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7/02/2007 12:02:00 AM
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