Wednesday, October 31, 2007
uhhh, its been some days since i'd write again. well, quite a few things happened recently. as in like, jiaqing's birthday celebration, some stuff which can really crashed me out. and right, starts from jiaqing's celebration. and wow, celebrated it at his sky garden. ya he ordered some buffet. but the food's really not enough. ya alot people turn up la. thats expected. but was surprised many of my classmates came as well. rahhh, first time we're out together. and more than 30people there that day. oh ya, happy belated birthday mr seah jiaqing. (:and the start of e learning week. of course, dont have to go school for one week! but still have to study for coming tests la. roar! and lucky, thats what i'd been doing now. study. and apart from that. regularly going to gym is also very important. haaa. aching all over, but the feelings damn shiok la. (:and as for other stuff, shant say too much, yea im getting over it for good man. (: RAHHHH!and ya im tire, gonna rest and study tomorrow. goodluck to me.
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10/31/2007 12:09:00 AM
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Thursday, October 25, 2007
thanks people for listening, giving all those opinions, cheering me up and all. i know what you guys are trying to say. but there's many things in life are easier to be said than done. i tried to, and i'd failed. i wouldnt mind trying again, but it's really killing me. im not scare, neither am i trying to run away from reality. i just dont like the feeling of being deceived, being made sure of. once encounter is enough. and so i guess, i would just give this chance a miss. i hope it wont be too abrupt to make this decision.
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10/25/2007 12:52:00 AM
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Sunday, October 21, 2007
had an early birthday celebration with Garry yesterday at Cherry. and no doubt, cant escape the fact of being drunk. oh man. i think i should fly to overseas during the month of my birthday. alright and, the same thing during Eesan's celebration. alot people went. and some were fucking high/drunk and all. kinda funny la. haha. although the time i reached home is like already four in the morning, but fuck. i cant really sleep. RRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!the same old kind of feeling arise. and i really dont know how to handle it. friends all gave supportive words. "good things dont come by so easily, now that you'd found it, just go for it." thats what im told. but i dont think its easy for me to work things out. im not fit to be one as compared. but i couldnt run away from it, it's killing me. sometimes, i just wish to do something, but the courage wasnt there. i dont like to face rejection. ........................................................ if only im a more capable person. though i dont really like to left things unsolve, but i had no choice. maybe, the only song, "Valentine" can reflect how i feel.the constant, arent so constant anymore.
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10/21/2007 11:55:00 PM
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Tuesday, October 16, 2007
i'd got to scream, finally. but not the epic stage that had mentioned. just a little enclose area. yes, felt alot more better after fuckingly scream the hell out of myself, all the sorrow inside just fuck off for good. aftermath, im having a severe sorethroat now. but hell yes, the feeling's really good.
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10/16/2007 11:30:00 PM
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Monday, October 15, 2007
the start of fourth week of school tomorrow. man, im still having this 'couldnt wake up early for school' illness. talking about this week, as usual. attending school and all. friday's kind of fun. celebrated eesan's birthday. but nothing much, just some doing barbecue stuff near his place. lots of people. and some of them were drunk. fucking funny. of coz, the mr birthday boy cant escape it. man, he was like an drunk fish in the end. fuck, cant imagine it when it's my brithday. roar. but anyway, happy 18th birthday eesan. (:
and there've got people asking me why am i listening to those noisy songs, as in metal kind of songs. well, just some screaming here and there doesnt mean it's noisy. they'd got meaning in them. they scream out how they feel, the pain in them, how cruel the world can be, understand the meaning in life. unlike those stupid rnb ( no offence to those who like it ) no meaning, anyhow rap, groove around with those music. what the fuck?i feel like having an epic stage of my own, screaming the hell out of myself, scream out the agony/pain/misery/anger/rage inside of me. nobody will understand how i feel. just listen once, and you faggots will know.
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10/15/2007 01:20:00 AM
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Thursday, October 11, 2007
"what am i doing recently?" this is the question i'd been asking myself since yesterday night. life's fucking boring, everyday doing the same old things. no life, totally cocks. and had been telling myself "i love to go school, cause school is fun." ( thats the drive i'd been using all along to pull me up from bed. ) but it doesnt seem to work now. had been going late, and it's really late for school almost everyday. fuck. it's like since im late, thats no point going to class and so, i skipped the fucking day lesson. what the fuck?!! what really do im doing/thinking?but thanks kevin, though you didnt say much, but you gave me a little push to study.
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10/11/2007 11:41:00 PM
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Monday, October 08, 2007
and well, its the end of one week again. man, kinda fast la. imagine last monday i was taking train to school, and now tomorrow's monday already. fuck. but still, this week's not as bad. school's as usual and attending gym becomes an addiction to me now. roar. still, kind of bored with the same old routine. but i had no damn other choice . uh huh, but saturday and sunday are both quite fun. especially sunday, which i mean today. man, we'd got so bored of singapore town already and so, we headed down to an offshore island! but not a "WOW" place, just a simple and carefree island, Pulau Ubin. (: though it may seems like a low-class, or some rural area, but hey it's a nice place okay. friendly people around. it was like raining so fucking heavily this morning la, mood spoiling. but still yibin, long seng and i still cab down to changi village ( we thought we was late ) . but roar! none had reach there before us man. so was like waited for 9876543210 seconds then all the others reached. yes, the first thing we got there is to pray. yes, sincerity's the best damn thing in there. oh well, and it's free time after that. roar! long seng and i came up with the idea to kayak, but fuck. its not open to public la. so wasted, but that didnt spoils the fun. we went cycling instead. and dont think its just normal cycling here and there okay. its like going into rocky paths, up and down slopes which really made our head big man. and the first ever wild boar experience we had. oh fuck. three of us went around, searching for a "very small, yet nice beach" that andrew said. and yes, we did found that small beach, and its really quite nice. but the route we took can really kill us. LOL! and on the way back ( kind of lost our way somehow ) , we ride into some super rocky/muddy/ulu path with the thought that it's bringing us back, BUT HELL NO, WE'D MET A REALLY SUPER BIG/FAT/ROUNDED/PORTLY ( for any words that can describe it as SUPER DUPER FAT ) WILD BOAR AND IT SCARED THE HELL OUT OF THE THREE OF US. the conversation goes,me ( was leading the way ) " WAH ! "yibin ( behind me ) " WAH! WILD BOAR! "long seng ( behind yibin and he cant see it ) " huh?! "yibin " GOGOGOGO TARIK TARIK! GOT WILD BOAR! "and so, we rushed back to the place we'd come from, riding faster and faster ( screaming along as we're riding ). dont give a damn how rocky that path can be, as long as we're still alive. and lucky for us, that wild boar didnt gave chase. man, the feeling can never be describe man. ROAR!and well, somehow, we found our way back. tire is the only word that come out from our mouth after we settled down for dinner. fuck, leg ache, arm ache, back ache, stomach ache, just everywhere la. but lucky, we've got a really nice dinner. seafood all over the table, and its all fucking fresh and srcumptious la, as in the prawns, the crabs, the fish, the everything. wooooo. a day spent. but a well-spent sunday it is, fun/exhilarating/stomach-feeling/whole body-aching. wooo, took a day off to relax. and its time to study again. goodnight all. (:
schoolbag, short hair, good student.
long seng there. copyrighted action.
and that's how bored they were while waiting for the rest.
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10/08/2007 12:14:00 AM
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Friday, October 05, 2007
life's appear to be more challenging now. more things' coming up as the year is coming to an end. gonna engage in lots of stuff. of coz, studying still the first priority. then, taking up one star license in some courses is a must. and still got to gym at least three times a week to stay healthy. furthermore, gonna work to earn some cash. oh fuck. i really hope i got the time and energy to do all this. roar!
the warmth from your hands, as they hold me so close.im losing this fight, and now i need you the most.i'll wait for the time, though my time is running thin.i'll countdown the clock, and i'll stop to take all this in.i swear, by the time i get through, things will never be the same.
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10/05/2007 01:54:00 AM
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Tuesday, October 02, 2007
dont you worry about the distance
im right there if you get lonely
give this song another listen
close your eyes
listen to my voice, its my disguise
im by your side
i know times are getting hard
but just believe me girl
someday i'll pay the bills with this guitar
we'll have it good
we'll have the life we knew we could
my word is good
i've got so much left to say
if every simple song i wrote to you
would take your breath away
i'll write it all
even more in love with me you'd fall
we'd have it all
a thousand seems pretty far
but they've got planes and trains and cars
i'd walk to you if i have no other way
our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along becasue we know
that none of them had felt this way
i can promise you
that by the time we get through
the world will never ever be the same
and you're to blame
you be good and dont miss me
two more years and you'll be done with school
and i'll be making history like i do
you'll know its all because of you
we can do whatever we want do
this ones to you.
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10/02/2007 12:03:00 AM
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