Sunday, October 21, 2007

had an early birthday celebration with Garry yesterday at Cherry. and no doubt, cant escape the fact of being drunk. oh man. i think i should fly to overseas during the month of my birthday. alright and, the same thing during Eesan's celebration. alot people went. and some were fucking high/drunk and all. kinda funny la. haha.
although the time i reached home is like already four in the morning, but fuck. i cant really sleep.
RRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
the same old kind of feeling arise. and i really dont know how to handle it. friends all gave supportive words. "good things dont come by so easily, now that you'd found it, just go for it." thats what im told. but i dont think its easy for me to work things out. im not fit to be one as compared. but i couldnt run away from it, it's killing me. sometimes, i just wish to do something, but the courage wasnt there. i dont like to face rejection. ........................................................ if only im a more capable person. though i dont really like to left things unsolve, but i had no choice. maybe, the only song, "Valentine" can reflect how i feel.
the constant, arent so constant anymore.

screamed ;
10/21/2007 11:55:00 PM

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